Because I'm Not Myself, You SeeA frank, hopeful and darkly funny memoir of postpartum psychosis and recovery. 'I do not know who I am anymore or where I have gone ' Ariane Beeston is a child protection worker and newly registered psychologist when she gives birth to her first child and very quickly begins to experience scary breaks with reality. Out of fear and shame, she keeps her delusions and hallucinations secret, but as the months pass, Ariane gets worse. Much worse. Finally